I'm so frustrated with myself right now.

My hair is really soft right now.

TOMORROW IS MY LAST DAY AS A NANNY PRAISE THE LORD HALLELUJAH YAYAYAYAY!

I'm training Bethy tomorrow, too, so it's not even like a real work day because, you know, I won't be by myself. Yay life. Then she and I are going to have some best friend time; it's going to be a fun day. OH and before that I'm having sushi lunch with Jordan. Yay.

FRIDAY... I have to try to finish cleaning and packing as much as possible. I'm doing well; I still have to scrubscrub the bathroom and not-so-fun stuff ... oh, well.

Saturday, I'm going blonder, very exciting. She'll get out that purple, too, hahaha. I'm so stupid. Oh, well. I know not to use too much Shimmer Lights next time. Eek.

AND SUNDAY I GET TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL! YAY! Haha, I'm such a nerd but oh I can't waaaaait. I miss my friends, and my room is going to be so cute, and um duh, THE BOY!

Today was my last full day of work (meaning next week I just have the kids in the afternoons ... like, pick up after school until whenever the parents get home, and on Thursday I'm training Bethy) - I'm so happy about that. I got them a little, "Thanks for not locking me out of the house all summer," (they did it only once, hahaha, and got in huuuuuuuge trouble) gift - a ( Webkinz ) for each of them. They were thrilled... it was also excellent blackmail/bribery to use against them all day. "I have a present for you but you only get it if you're really good!" Hahaha, I should never have kids. Actually, no, because my child will have good manners and won't be a whiny little pansy like these kids. Plus, I'll love my own kid. So yeah. Whatev.

I'm getting ( these shoes ) tomorrow. I think they're quite lovely. I'm also going to get some classic black pumps because, well, my favorite pair is absolutely haggard and the other ones are about 1/2 size too small and therefore are PAINFUL!

I started a list of crap I need to buy before or once I get back to school... a TV (they were always provided previously by roommates, but I'm getting a single room - yay!), a DVD player (mine mysteriously STOPPED working approximately 2 months into 1st semester ... steallar), a Brita water filter pitcher... thing, some random clothing items, a sewing machine table, a chair, blablablablabla. Most of it I'll get next Sunday when I'm moving in and my parents are their with ~*~$$$ DA FUNDZ ~~$, y'know. I want to chip in with them and get a nice-ish about 20" flat-screen TV. Space-saving and stylish, youuuuu know... Wow, this is probably the most boring thing to read ever. Sorry. Uh, let me find something angsty... no. I'm pretty happy with life right now.

This week will consist of a lot of cleaning, laundry, and packing, as well as trying to see the people I love as much as possible before I go back to YAYSCHOOL! on the 26th.

( It was like being high. Nobody wanted to be around me. )



I love A Softer World.

It's a land of sweets and joy, and joyness.

So, I'm really good at Wii tennis, bowling, and boxing. ESPECIALLY boxing ... who'd'a thunk!? I'm going to be sad in a week when I'm at school sans Wii... oh, well. It would just be another distraction from studying anyway - but such a great, FUN workout! Sad.

Oh hi.

I'm so excited to go back to school.

I'm also excited to get my paycheck (well, duh) ... money is a nice thing to have.



Pretty sure my dorm room this year is going to be the cutest thing ever! It's all Hello Kitty, Dirty Linens, colorful, cute, happiness. Yes. I love it. My bed is going to be an awesome fort-like tent kind of thing... it's going to be so wonderful, whimsical, perfect for me.

I'm going blondER in a week and a half ... can't wait.

I want some tortoise-shell rim fake glasses like the sexy-librarian black ones that I have... I think tortoise-shell color/pattern would look fantastic with the lighter hair, no?

So now I'm rambling ... I guess that's what I always do though.

Today was decent. Work was lame - I watched those kids for 12.5 hours! My longest regular shift yet... thankfully this job is almost over. "Miss Lauren" can only handle so much, "I WANNA GO TO THE POOOOOOOOL," and, "Miss Lauren I'M HUNGRYYYYYYYY!" Ugh, yeah.

But after work I went to Olivia's and she made some amazing angel hair alfredo with broccoli and chicken. It was yummyummyummy. Then we watched Just Friends, which I hadn't seen - oh my gosh, that movie is hilarious/wonderful! I plan on buying it, fo tril.

After Olivia's I went over to Edward's to see "the gang" and to give Abbey her birthday card and Target gift card. I figure everyone loves Target/could use a Target gift card at some point, so, though it lacked creativity, she seemed to appreciate it (and my drawings of dinosaurs, unicorns, and carnivorous flowers eating crying flowers) - and I smoked some hooka, which I hadn't had in quite awhile. So that was pleasant.

I realized that tonight when I was hanging out with people, for whatever reason, I had no anxiety about how I look. Usually I at least worry, "Do I look fat?" or "Does my face look gross?" but I wasn't worried about it. That's just how comfortable I feel around those people, and it's a great thing. I mean, I didn't even think about what I look like, because I know I'm accepted by those people no matter what. They're my friends... as long as I don't steal someone's alcohol, haha. ;] Good thing for them, I don't drink.

Hahaha, Hayley's teeth are yellow. Gross. Okay, enough of my Paramore hating for the day.

Tomorrow I have to work and I'm not very excited about it, but I only have to work like 30-36 hours this week instead of 40-45.

The Hills is such a stupid show. Seriously. Hate it. LC is so lame. I can't believe this show is still going. Oh, well.

MAN SOUNDZ LIKE I BEEN DRANKIN' THAT HATERADE, YO!

Anyway, I'm so excited to go back to school and see everyone. I think Chris and I are going to start a Bible study for the N3RD guys and us N3RD groupies/girls. Haha. I will always love that hall. They're such great guys. I can't wait to hang out with them more this year; maybe Allen being their RA will make them more outgoing. Haha. ;] No offense, David. I wonder if CREEPY STUIE will be there or if he's gotten kicked out yet. :[ Scary. I can't waaaaaait to see ALIE! and Jade! and Katie! and Kara! and so many people. It's going to be fabulous.

This chick is kind of my hero.


So anyway, how are you doing? Tell me. I want to know. For real. Comment and let me know how life's going, what you've been up to, whateverrrr. :] I'm interested to know.

I'm really tired of seeing Paramore all over EVERYWHERE! Their new CD sucks ... okay, I like it, but that doesn't mean it doesn't SUCK. I'm just trying to watch America's Next Top Model and every 5 seconds there's some MTV thing with PARAMORE. HDSJHDKLSFJLKDF.

I really just wish all their songs sounded like "Emergency (Crab Mix)" - seeeriously.

OMG MISERY BUSINESS, GTFO.

Sorry. So anyway. I'm being really lazy today and I'm ok with that because, boo, work tomorrow. Yuck.

Hahahahahaha.

Better than I could have ever said it.

I just named my sewing machine.

HER NAME IS DAVID BOWIE.




I need to find some cute pencil skirts to try on ... pray tell, my stylish friends, where have you found cute ones for kinda cheap? I don't feel like asking MRS, hehehe.

My eye hurts; it is sad.

I'm able to finish paying off my car to my parents for the summer! OHYAY.

I'm so excited to go back to school.

This is the most organized journal entry ever, frsrs.

I realize that if I hadn't made some of my past mistakes, I may not have ended up with the situation I'm in now.

If I hadn't dated shithead Dave, then I might have gone to Asbury single, where I probably would have met some other guy/guys and dated him/them, and maybe I wouldn't have met Matt at just the right time when shithead/my relationship was coming to a close.

I made mistakes, but instead of feeling guilty I should learn from them.

I love my Matt so much. He's just perfect for me, and I don't care how cliché that sounds. He is. We're just right for each other.

I think LJ is broken.

Nothing new is showing up on my friends' page and no new comments are showing up anywhere... weird. Not ok.

I'M BLONDE! It's a fun change.

We feed our Chihuahua mushrooms and green beans.

Hahahahaha.